Need support from other Bipolars?!


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Need support from other Bipolars?

I was diagnosed as Bipolar at 22 but brushed it off. I thought I just has "situational depression". However, over the last 10 years (I'm almost 32) I have virtually destroyed my life during my manic and depressive spells. I finnally sought help a couple months ago and got on Mood stabalizers for the first time ever. Now I feel depressed like my life was ruined or wasted and I am just a mentally ill person who can barely hold it together. I have held a job now for 9 months. I lost all my friends and belongings because of the things I would do in the most extreme times of my illness. I feel like it's not fair that others make good lives for themselves and I had to be sick during the years I could be building a life. I'm also scared this will get worse even though I'm on meds and I won't be there for my kids. I feel defeated. I just need some understanding from someone else bipolar. I don't have any friends with the illness - or any friends at all i can talk to.

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3 weeks ago
Thank God to all who have answered ...except HUSKY- your answer was exactly the opposite of what I needed. I KNOW some of it is me.. that is where the guilt shame, depression and thoughts of suicide come from - thanks for bringing up those feelings again when I asked for support. To EVERYONE but Husky - thanks for your support and understanding. I needed it and appreciate you all very much.


Answers:

I am sorry to read about how sad you are. I want you to understand you are not alone. I myself am Not a bipolar, but my best friend, almost like a sister to me, is bipolar. I understand your agony and most of all your personal deception of yourself. I want you to do one thing. Believe that no matter what, you CAN DO IT. ok. Think of this as your past life, whatever you do from now on, you will do it with positive passion. No one can defeat you, except yourself. I know it sounds like something you hear everday.But honestly, when you feel alone, your not. There are many others who have tried to reach out to you. But the only one insisting you are not perfect is you. Do you believe in God? God is the master behind your illness. He has a plan for you. Dont give up on him now or ever. There will be a time in your life when things will start to fall into pieces like the broken jigsaw puzzle you feel now. Just like you broke apart, your life will mend again. I am very proud you took the initiative. You have accepted you have a problem. Things like depression, thoughts of suice, happy moods, sad, even feelings of rage are part of you. But what you have got to try to do now, is write down how you feel on a daily calendar. Tonight you write down how you feel, but before tommorrow comes, you write down how great your day will be. Pray with all your might, cry, get angry but most of all believe that God listens even though He does not respond. And do you know why? I believe that God is so mighty that his voice alone is to holly for our human form. And because of this, if God were to whisper to us, how amazingly proud he is of us, he would blast us out of our human form forever. And because of this we would never get the chance to meet Him. God instead sends out messengers to tell you to hold on, be strong. You are the best person in the whole world. Even if at times you dont think so. I believe you are. I recommend you take some classes. This might sound strange, but anger management does help. If you get a chance go to school. Get an education, a part time job. Do something you will enjoy. Surround yourself with good humored people, and most of all think before you react. This is very essential. Think of it this way. Not everyone knows what kind of psychological issues you have and no one needs to know. It is all on how you react, socialize, and communicate.When someone asks you, hey how are you? Reach down inside you and tell them, great! and getting better. Even though it may not be true, but I tell you something, the secret is, that you will start to believe in yourself. If no one is around to be positive then it is your job to do it. Think of your children, make a promise to them and by God work at it. Get up, get out of bed, go for a walk, go get some ice cream, buy a cat, do yourself a makeover, let the kids help. (who knows they might come up with a million dollar idea) I tell you all this, I don't know you and I have complete confidence in you. I have it in my sister in law who is now your age, she is a brand new mommy and I am so proud of her too. Don't let yourself be your own enemy, this will destroy you. Become meek. Say yes to everything God want for you. Even if you dont believe you can achieve it. But think before you act. Think how others will be hurt with your manic and depressive self. They do try to get you out of those moods except it requires a lot of patience. God will heal you, but first he want you to put your 100% and he will do the rest. you are never defeated unless you let it happen. you say you dont have any friends, what about me? I want to be your friend, as a matter of fact, I want you to write to me. Personally get involved. I want you to be the person I became. I will tell you more about my life later on. But first, go to sleep with good thoughts, have good dreams, wake up and make them reality.




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