My darkness is growing worse, why are my thoughts turning so negative?!

My darkness is growing worse, why are my thoughts turning so negative?

For some reason lately, I started thinking the world would be better off without me. I have said many times nothing is holding me here and that is literally true; I lost most of my immediate family nor do I have a wife or children. My best friends turned on me and stabbed me in the back. I am so alone. I feel nothing I say or do matters. It all seems pointless. All I do is suffer emotionally day in day out.

Something must be very wrong.

I'm sorry you feel the way you do. Have you ever seen a doctor. When I have felt my worst I have felt like you do now. Antidpressants really really make a difference when you feel this way. Just see a doctor and give an antidepressant a fair chance - you just might feel better. God Bless and a hug for you too.