Depression---getting pretty bad?!

Depression---getting pretty bad?

i don't know what to do. what are you supposed to do when you are so depressed you just want to lie in bed and do nothing? what are you supposed to do when you are so depressed you want to kill yourself, but you know it's morally wrong and you would never do it? what are you supposed to do when your body is just so tired...tired of living...tired of doing...tired of crying? i currently take medication and have been taking medication for some time. even though i'm on a high dosage (higher made me really dizzy), the depression still comes through. i see a psychiatrist once in a while for meds checks and i regularly see a social worker. i'm just tired of being...tired of living...tired of getting up in the morning, taking showers, doing laundry, making food, watching tv, feeding my dog.....i'm so much at a dead end and there's nothing i can do about it. i can't funcation anymore and i don't know what to do.

3 weeks ago
yeah - - all that stuff costs money. money i don't have. on top of that, i'm a recluse. i don't like to go places where there are other people. it's not that easy.

3 weeks ago
uhh yeah. i have someone i've been with for almost 7 years. that doesn't help at all. he's compassionate about it but he just doesn't understand. i also struggle with knowing the real meaning of love. i guess this was just a waste of time. there are WAY too many things going on with me to just say "talk to your doctor - change your meds." it's not that simple. i'm adopted and i have literally been depressed since birth. i had problems when i was a small child with hate for myself. that has never gone away and i seriously don't see it ever going away.

Hi

I know how you feel. I get suicidal and don't do it because of the morality issue. You should be really proud of yourself for hanging in even though you have difficulities.

Maybe your medication needs to be changed, you might not be on the right one. And maybe you can get one that will help you though the social anxiety or some counselling to help you through that.

Remember that you aren't alone, a lot of other people have the similar issues. You might be at a low point now, but you will feel better and when you do it will have worth working through things.

Try making some little improvement every day in your life, even if it is just one little goal that you reach. That will make you feel good about yourself and as you grow stronger you might want to accomplish more.

If you can work on being less reclusive that will probably help you feel better also, maybe try taking one small step at a time.
Good luck with it, and keep trying, you will see results!