Some of may relate to this...the crap that I've been through but I'm determined !

Some of may relate to this...the crap that I've been through but I'm determined to fight, but need motivation.

Well I'm a 26 yr old guy, brought up by abusive parents who I no longer even feel close to. I'm a graudate and started working at 21, was really content with my life being independant and all, answerable to noone, but my parents didn't like that so screwed up my life.
I have a steady job but live in a different town now. I don't have a girlfriend because I just can't trust anyone, I have few friends and I speak too less.
I am planning to go back to the place where I started working, the place where I lived the best year of my life, the only difference is that I was very motivated back then, now I'm not so, plus I'm older.
I would also like to add that between 23 and 25 I was contemplating ending my life becuase I felt so decieved, but unfortunately couldn't end my life, I started counselling and am on meds now, but now I'm 26 and not 22, the last four years of my life haven't been so fulfilling, my family makes me feel like I'm old, am I old or can I still live an adventurous life?

hi mavrik, i have to say one thing which i hope is a motivator to you. lookin back at what you've been through, and where you are now, what all you've achieved and how much effort , time and determination you've put in to achieve what you did, i can only say that this should be your motivation to continue what you've been doing. the motivation should be not wanting to end up like your parents, and ti find something worth your time and that suits your interest.

lookin back i hopeyou feel that it was worth it not ending your life because if you had, you wouldnt have done all that you did in the past three yrs or so.

i have a few friends too;the numbers dont matter, just the quality of your friendship with them. 26? old my foot. thats the prime of your YOUTH, go out there, do things you've never thought you could, and find solace in the knowledge that your freedom permits you to truly be FREE.

dont have to shut off ties with your parents if you dont want to ( or do it if they simply lose complete faith in you) if it makes your life much easier. you dont have to prove anything to them, they dont have a right to judge you. honestly, i dont know you at all, but i have to say i'm PROUD that you havent become the man your father is, and that you've seen the sense to make something of yourself rather than get into bad company.

so ultimately, sorry for the long winded speech but GO OUT, WORK HARD and PLAY HARDER . there is no limit to seeking thrills :)