I don't know what to do with myself, please help...?!

I don't know what to do with myself, please help...?

Lately i am having trouble talking to people, i get so nervous and worked up and my face turns red.. and now i'm afraid to talk to anyone, even my boss or people i've known for awhile becuase i'm afraid my face will turn red.. my friends would describe me as outgoing, funny, and not shy at all, for that's how i have ben until now, but now this is happening and i don't know why.. i feel like all of a sudden i lack confidence in myself and i just don't want anyone to look at me.. for my face will turn red, it's so stupid sounding but is really effecting my life now.. i am going through a lot of big changes, just finished college, work at my first full time job, broke up with this really ***** of a girl who really messed me up, and i blame myself too for letting it happen, my dad just had a storke and can't walk anymore, my brother was arrested for child pornography, i just feel like i lost myself and have no direction, at least in college i had a plan i was doing something, please help

first of all......... I know we love our loved ones BUT we have to love OURSELVES brother was arrested for Porn Big Deal it was NOT you......... Dad love him the best you can and has much as you can. When the day comes you will remember the love you gave him and bot have one guilty bone in your body. The girl is the least of your worries. I am much older than you and I am going through the worst time I have experienced on this earth BUT I still have confidence and I still hold my head high. WHY because we are all somebody. You are a big somebody. YOU just FINISHED college. so you know how many people would like to say that? You have a full time job do you know how many people would like to say that? You just think it is bad but it isn't I cam tell you are a great person just by reading through your lines. You can't lose yourself unless you want to be lost. You don't want to be lost because here you are talking to me. See you are not lost at all Chin up have fun, whip this job and advance to the next one. Love your dad and as for the girl whoopee do dah She is the loser because she lost you. Talk to me whenever. YOU ARE GREAT. so go live life to it's fullest.