Has anyone been in this seriously crazy and gotten back to normal?!

Has anyone been in this seriously crazy and gotten back to normal?

I have had depressino for 6 months, and anxiety and spend most of my time looking at the internet lookking for jobs, houses, travel options, as i have no forward plan since dropping out of studying, i am so ashamed of myself and it has been 6 months and i have no idea how to make my self happy again, i'm that ashamed i want to kill myself, but i wont, i cry every single day, in the shower, spend most days when i 'm not working lying on my bed, i am so nervous when i go out i barely speak to anyone, i have barely smiled or laughed for 6 months, it is getting ridiculous and i know you cannot live like this and life is too short but i dont know how to get out of it as i'm just so unhappy and have stuffed everything up, has anyone else been seriously seriously crazy and depressed and strange, i go out and just sit there when i'm aroun dpeople, i've been living week by week because i 'might' go back overseas bu t then dont go i agonise over every decision i make and i havent relaxed 4 mont

3 weeks ago
i am on meds and seeing a counsellor but not helping and i ma just sabotaging my life more and more!

first of all do not be ashamed of how you feel, it is not your fault. if you just cannot seem to get out of your depression it again is not your fault. you should see your doctor, and tell him that your antidepressants are not making you feel better. sometimes it takes a while to find out the right antidepressants, that work well for a person. you also i am sure are discussing this with your counselor. sounds like you are not crazy but depressed, and sounds like you are trying to help your self by seeing your doctor and counselor. when you say i might go back over seas if it means in Iraq then that could be the reason you are depressed also. i hope this helps good luck to you hang in there, and yes i do know of people who were very sick and have recovered. if you are talking about going overseas to get away from it all, it probably will not make you feel better, but may make you feel isolated and more alone.