I hate myself?!

I hate myself?

For many reasons, I'm ugly overweight fat, the dream I had which was drawing now I can't do 'cause I now have come to the realazation of how much I suck at it. I suck at everything else I do, And all my parents do is lie to me how great I am at drawing or how pretty I am or how I'm not fat I'm just not toned. You can tell by how they say that they are just lying.
But for a 13 yr. old to ponder this is probally stupid, but the biggest problem of my sadness is the questions that are just left unanswered. Like the meaning of life kinda questions that I can't stop pondering. To even go into how these questions effect me would be impossible to explain with words. If they were answered my sadness wouldn't be as great.

Once I too was too ugly and I hate myself (probably when I was between 12 and 18).. But now, my friends and my relatives wishes to be like me. All that happened yet I know how!
Its because when I was 18, I started to follow Lord Jesus Christ. I used to pray to Him like speaking to friend. I used to say to Lord about my friends who bullied me and also I used to say what I think about myself. Each and everything I used to tell to Him. Later after probably three months or so, my juniors, friends (even the person who bullied me) everybody started to admire at me in whatever (in dressing, studies, character, etc) I do. For most of the students I became rolemodel. I am blessed as software engineer now with a very good salary also. I thank our Lord who changed my life from darkness to Happiness! Never in my lifetime I thought I will be such a famous personality (as good and charming)in my college. But it happened! Glory to the Lord!