Whats wrong with me?!

Whats wrong with me?

i feel so bad that sometimes i just want to kill my self. i had a suicide atempt when i was nine (im 14 now turning 15 in the summer) im not going ot i know better now but i just want to go sit in a ditch with my i-pod. i feel like i shouldent even be here and like there no reason for me to and i make eveyones life worse but my best friends. i also blame my self for my sister and nieces death(killed my bf) i dont know whats wrong with me. and im not going to my parents. idk if im crazy or something i sometimes talk to dead ppl to in dreams(sister,niece,grandma)it... scary. and sometimes i see dead ppl i dont know. i dont know what do

Hey. I'm deeply sorry you feel this way hon. Those who feel they're crazy and often wonder what they are doing here are in fact very spiritual, superior beings. in regards to you seeing spirits, there is nothing wrong with that, there are many, many individuals, like yourself who are born with this beautful gift. That alone tells you you do have a big purpose in life. The world needs special people like youto keep a balance, something I wouldn't go into detail b/c you are very young. NO LIFE IS A WASTE. Hang on and you'll see how important you are. You might just be going through a chemical imbalance and the fact that you are experiencing these 'paranormal' stuff is only making it worse until you are old enough to understand how beautiful and special you are. Is there anyone you can to talk to about this? In the meantime, I want you to do a little research in 'Indigo Children' and you'll see you are not only nor you're crazy. In fact you are very , very special hon... Please try to find help in the meantime. You are also going through the toughest phase in life, teenager.