I am a compulsive liar?!

I am a compulsive liar?

I have been lying my entire life and I need to stop! I lie so much that I start believing in what I say. I look into the person's eyes, even though I really love this person, and lie all the time. I am afraid of telling the truth, even if sometimes it's easier. I always think it's easier to lie. My most frequent lie is about shopping. My boyfriend of many years and I share our finances and right now we can't really afford to buy anything; but I always buy stupid stuff like lipstick and clothes and tell him, when confronted, that I bought them a long time ago. My boyfriend has been really supportive until now, but he has given up on me. He wants to break up with me now and I am desperate! I need to do something to fix this problem. I lie to everybody about everything. About my college degree, about my family, about job experience... I have to stop. But I am in it so deep that I can't just come out and tell the truth. Please Help!

Sounds kinda like the trouble I got myself in.... but not to this extent. The hole you're digging is only going to get deeper and sooner or later you'll lose everyone you love and ALL their trust so now is better than never to stop. Do whatever it is that it's going to take to stop.... whether that be seeking professional help or not.