Where do i go from here? i dont want to live this crap for the rest of my life?!

Where do i go from here? i dont want to live this crap for the rest of my life?

I'm 25. A few years ago my friend(who was pretty much my sister, long story) died in a plane crash it has really messed me up my big plans and ambitions have diminished, I've let opportunities pass me by I've given up on friends don't speak to my family much these days My x GF wasn't really there for me(I was such a dummy) no-one understands me or take me seriously. I had surgery a couple of years ago which unfortunately didn't go as planned it has left my face swollen and plates and screws sticking out and i hardily recognise my own face in the mirror. I don't want to get a job and for that matter I don't really want anything anymore, I can't even hold a conversation. Reality seems so distant. DON'T refer me to a doctor i've been there and done that, and also anti depressents aren't for me, either is suicide assholes. Is there anyone with a similar storie who'd like to share?

3 weeks ago
I work out 7 days a week...

I hate it when I see or hear of anyone going through such mental turmoil...especially someone so young and full of life and someone that has SO much to offer the world. Sweetie, you CANNOT let circumstances beyond your control CONTROL your life. So many times when we lose a dear person in our lives to death we will grieve to the point of dwelling on it and it will destroy our lives. When in all actuality we are grieving for ourselves not the one that has passed. We are sad because that person is no longer in our lives. Instead of thinking about her no longer being here with you think of all the positive things she did to influence your life. Take control of yourself again. Life is a long and a lot of the time difficult road to travel. You HAVE to learn to roll with the punches. I know you think it's easy for me to say, but it's not. I've had my share...goodness knows I've had my share.

As far as your face and your surgery that didn't go as planned. There are people who specialize in surgery to reconstruct and fix other doctors screw ups. Pick yourself up by the bootstraps, dust yourself off and give it a try at living. Get a job. That will be the first thing that will help you get out of those doldrums you're in. I know you don't want to talk to anyone, but you MUST...you absolutely MUST! I guarantee after a couple of months you will have a WHOLE different outlook on life. I wish you all the best and know that I'm sending HUGSSSSSSS your way!