I need help on my insecurity and being so paranoid....?!

I need help on my insecurity and being so paranoid....?

I gone through a terrible state when going through the separation and divorce with my ex-husband. I gone mad when I found out he was unfaithful to me when he worked in another country. I just didn't have the will to live on anymore.

I was then with my current boyfriend who took care of me. Now I'm physically apart from him, I feel even more insecure & I would cling on him badly via email/phone calls. He got very irritated with me and scolded me very badly and rudely. I just can't concentrate and do my own things, my mind is pre-occupied with him and worse when I heard she has female friends. I would contact him even more. Is this abnormal?

Sometimes I feel like just give up on him but very quickly, I would think of him and contact him again. I just failed doing it.

And now, I'm going to start a new job soon.

I know what is the right thing to do yet I'm unable to do it. How to stop this insecurity & GET OUT FROM IT and live my own life..it's torturing & suffering...

I would suggest a book called "Co-Dependent No More" by Melody Beattie... if anything you can read (I am sure even on Amazon.com) the back cover and you can decide if it sounds like you.

Personally it sounds like you tend to lose YOU and relinquish your control to you significant other. This book can help re-establish and regain your power back.

good luck
many blessings,
Jen