What does this sound like to you?!
Question:
What does this sound like to you?
I'm going to describe a person:
This person is female. She's deeply ashamed of her emotions. She often appears emotionally flat. She believes that outward physical displays of emotion are crude and that the only way she allows herself express emotion is either through acts of kindness or through art unless she is close to a person. Telling her boyfriend she loves him or a friend that she cares is okay, but only if no one is looking.
If she senses that a display of emotion is coming on, she may pinch, bite or cut herself in order to control it. She might cry during a movie, but she'll cover her face and pretend she's not even make jokes about how foolish it is to cry. She writes that she has frequently depressed, wishes she was never born and that life isn't worth living. She writes that her emotions are too intense, so in order to appear 'not crazy' she keeps everything even the small things bottled up. She says she tried doing things differently, but that only led to drama.
Answers:
It sounds like she has suffered some trauma in her life and really needs professional help.