Im seeing a psychologist but I still need help....?!

Im seeing a psychologist but I still need help....?

I know I need to move on, I know I can do better. I dont understand why Im acting like this. We were together for 4 years, he was a selfish jerk through all of it and I was still there for him. I still cant explain why I cared so much about him..he didnt deserve it. I dont know what to do and my brain is playing games with me. Seriously...I dont think about him at all for awhile and then I have a sudden urge to know whats going on with him. Hes not worth the time, so why do I keep doing this to myself?? Its been a little over a year now and what really pisses me off is that it wasnt quite this bad after we broke up!! I have always thought that my heart is just disappointed because I put everything I had and then some into our relationship, and Im not emotionally content. I have been having the same dreams about him being a caring, loving and thoughful person....even though it was not like that at all. I was in denial for a long time. Ive tried moving on but I compare new to old

Same here,
I had a guy and I really cared for him although he was a jerk, he'd flirt with all my friends in front of me and then behind my back cheat on me, and when I wanted to break up he "pitied" me because he wanted both sides of the lawn (lol). Then I finaly did just leave him and he made me out to be the bad guy when I wasn't. I hated him completely and I'd be find for days without thinking of him, then suddenly I would want to knopw what he was doing and eberything else, and then I'd think about him at night. I know its ahrd to move on especially if you put in your all for him. All you have to do is enjoy life to the fullest; I rmeber taking some serious risks I WOULD NEVER TAKE before actually gave me the thrill of life and made me thirsting for more things dangerous and exciting; you should try and then you'll forget all about him!