I am completely empty?!

I am completely empty?

Seriosly, I only feel when listening to music, doing a wide assortment of drugs, or the unspeakable. All I feel is guilt and hate. Guilt for my parents who have done nothing but love me, and hate for everyone but me. Sometimes I get so pissed off at the world in general I just want to say **** it all to everything and everyone. Does anyone else get filled with DESPAIR when they take a long, hard look at the world? Has anyone thought of these things on shrooms or acid? WHERE DO WE GO FROM HERE?? WHAT COME NEXT? WHAT OF YOUR KIDS?!?!?

at least you do feel......it's easy in this world to feel dispair and hate but to everything there is an opposite so what is the opposite........hope and love. for some people it is a choice as to which side they would rather be on. for others it's because of a medical condition to which there is treatment but one has to just chose what category they fall into and if they want change. Personally I think the world would do well if more people were pronoiacs believing that the universe is conspiring to shower us with blessings. I got up today and was able to stand, I was able to open up my blinds and see the beauty of the world. That doesn't mean I'm not going through **** but sometimes I just have to take a mental shower to get some of the stink off and it is nice.......therapy helps though big time......good luck on your journey.