Can anyone with Dissociative Identity Disorder or someone who knows about this p!

Can anyone with Dissociative Identity Disorder or someone who knows about this please help me???

I typically do not ask questions as I find it hard. Can't say my "name" is very fitting at the moment. I was on here answering questions, then the next thing I know I am on the phone with my Therapist's in front of her office. Had to figure out why I was there and why I was on the phone but apparently ended up there because "someone" thought it was time for our appointment. It is dark for pete's sake! Yeah sure it was the correct time so to speak but the appointment is tomorrow morning not tonight. I know this. I feel like a complete idiot. I am already going through so much and feel like giving up! I have been seeing my therapist's for many years now but I am embarrased to even go tomorrow now. It was so hard getting home because then my anxiety was so high and I am already on 11mgs. of Xanax. Have tried everything, literally and nothing seems to work for very long. I feel completely lost and hopeless yet the hospitals here are not accepting of DID. I do not know what to do anymore.

4 weeks ago
Please do not leave negative feedback or answers as I am already feeling bad enough. If you do not agree....just go to another question. Thank you.

4 weeks ago
I have read almost every book on the shelves about anxiety, literally and I am extremely intelligent and am aware of all the things that can be done to help anxiety. I understand "what" you are saying about Xanax but I also know that without it I cannot leave my house at all.

Hey, hang in there and don't be embarrassed. I know, easier said than done! I would suggest that you go inside and ask the part that went to see your therapist what was going on-they may have been triggered and felt a sudden need to go there, or perhaps been simply confused about the time. Try to get all the parts to work cooperatively on a method for managing the schedule for appointments and get an internal conversation going without being angry or judging the part that made an error. The good thing is that there is at least another part who is cooperating with therapy and I'd be sure to thank them for that.
Try and resist the tendency to dissociate and "go away" when another part needs body time-instead "stay" with the other parts-you will deccrease the likelihood of episodes such as this and the resulting confusion if you are able to stay present, if not always in control, as much as possible. Discuss the situation internally also and seek support and suggestions from other parts inside-your system itself will always generate the best solutions to the issues you face.
Good Luck! Be sure and share how you responded to this with your therapist tomorrow too as she/he may have other more specific suggestions for you. Please don't beat yourselves up over this-it happens and you're working on it!

Added: I am tired-forgot to mention-11mg of xanax is extremely high-my understanding of the max dose for xanax is 6mg QD, so you may want to discuss this with your doc-just a suggestion.