How should I live my life properly?!

How should I live my life properly?

I keep getting into situations where by I prove that something is one way, and everyone else knows it's the other way and even proves me wrong!

For instance, the staff that work with me have agreed that an induction to new recrutes requires 5 co-worker shifts. Other staff will tell me that they know that there is only 2 required; and even though I would have proved it is 5 and would have signed an agreement, 2 co-worker shifts will find thier way into occuring.

I will find something that someone has done wrong and will prove it. It becomes my fault because I'm always to quick to accuse other people of things apparently.

If I do something right, it back-fires smacking in the face. The more I try to balance things, the more and more imbalanced it gets.

Just like when I have a bag of 12 crisp and I eat 4, there is 2 left over. In much the same way as 1 + 1 = 3

4 weeks ago
It is funny how everyone else knows what they're talking about and how you don't know sh1t when you know your right.
It is funny how it's you that always gets short-changed.
It is funny how everything in regards to what goes wrong always revolves around you, and no matter how bad things get, your selfish for complaining as some people have to cope with far worse. In much the same way as being spanked does not siese to hurt just because someone else was beaten to death.
This life is so fuc*ked up!

If I assert myself saying how things are to go in my life, people do it wrong anyway; so it means that putting my foot down means my foot will go strait through the floor. Yet everyone else manages.
Maybe it is not how forceful I have to be, but what approach I use; only draw back is that my views are always transluscent to everyone else.

4 weeks ago
There is something more to it than just knowing something to validate a fact. There is something more to enforcing your rights, other than just forceing people to follow it if you or the authorities helping you fails.
It is something fundamental which everyone does in coallition with thier intensions like mine, but I do not know what.

This totally revolutionises the idea of how you take part in humanity.

I am becoming a nut-case! I cannot think rationally anymore and I will end up being commited in a psychriatic hospital if I have to keep being presented with these kinds of cases.

Clearly, you can see that thinking rationally does not cut it, anymore than the moon being made of green cheese works for a dairy moon lander.

What the F-ing hell is wrong with things and how the F-ing hell am I meant to live life like everyone else manages to?
I am insane and I know that when I look away from the moon, the moon is not there.
I cannot even kill myself!

4 weeks ago
AAAAaaaaaaaaaggggggggggghhhhhh...

I know that God wears tights.
I know my Mum bonks on the cats scratching post.
I know that when the staff wake up. they will not no longer wake up at work or at home, but will get stuck between the two when the clocks strike 13.
I knew that in the olden days the children were spanked so hard by thier parents that they get so hot they meledt on thier mothers laps and become puddles of molten flesh, they screem because it burns, but the only evidence of the screeming we can see is the ripples.

What sort of attitude should I use to live this kind of life style, such that it will work like it does for everyone else, instead of it revolving around what it deprives it's self of being?

Does it really matter so much to be right?