Please help?...?!

Please help?...?

I'm 17 years old and everything in my life is f*cked up.

When I was 14 I was in a car crash and I was told I would never walk again. I can walk but I have permanent injuries and I can't go and do anything I enjoy or play any sports anymore.

When I was 15 I was sexually abuse and raped by a friend of mine. Then 6months later I was sexually abused again by a family friend.

I've moved around so much and been to so many different schools. I only have one true friend and i'm pushing him away.

My parents were divorced when I was 3 and my mum told my Dad he wasn't allowed to see my brother or I again. My mother re-married and abusive gambler/alcoholic and my mum now emotionally abuses me.

I do really well at school, that's all I have. Everyone thinks I can handle my life fine but I can't.

I've lost many friends to suicide and not been there to say goodbye.

I have all these secrets and no one to tell them to. My family have such high expectations of me too.

What can I do?

O I Am so sorry

You need alot of conseling olso a anti depressive

Tell some to take you to the doctor and give a anti depressive
Cymvalta- is a very good anti depressive

If no boy can take you youn can go by your self