Why can't I cope?!

Why can't I cope?

Ok, so I got married a couple months ago, quit my job (which I hated anyway) because I had to move 3 hours away where my husband is. Have been v-e-r-y happy not working. Have been thrilled staying at home, getting the house in order, doing the "chores," laundry, cooking, cleaning, etc........
Husband wants me to find some sort of work, even if it's part time.
The very thought of it is even killing me. Updating resume, sneind out cover letters, interviewing, etc.
Getting anxious, depressed, pulling my cuticles, picking, etc - feeling like a burden, like I'm not carrying my weight.
My formal DXs -- Borderline, Highly Sensitive, Obsessive with Compulsive Tendencies, Anxiety, Depression. Had been coping very well that past few months.

Does DH know all this? Yes. Did he know beforehand? Yes.

4 weeks ago
OH, and the TV isn't on when I'm home. We combined two full houses -- so you can remove "lazy" from your accusations. I'm working my butt off combining, sorting, tossing, etc.

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