I'm 17 years old and I've been wanting to commit suicide since I was 13...?!

I'm 17 years old and I've been wanting to commit suicide since I was 13...?

Has anybody else gone through this? How do you find the motive to keep on living? I struggle with it everyday and am tired and just want to end it. And no...I'm not some goth girl who thinks death should be glorified.

Hello, very beautiful girl! I have found some information for you which may give you some help, there was a time, I used to feel exactly the way you feel for many many years. Finally, I took charge of my life mysel, and here I'm, a very successful professional.

The way I used to feel, I never ever wish for anyone to suffer such pain. Now your question speaks by itself about your pain.

I also know, you are a very brave person and you have lots of courage to do, and moreover, you have a full right to live a beautiful life, dont lose this chance by staying sad.

I'm pasting some information for you:
Suicide has been called a "permanent solution to a temporary problem." When you are feeling extremely depressed or suicidal, problems do not seem temporary – they seem overwhelming. You feel like things will never get better. But most things do get better, if you wait them out, and get help for the feelings you are experiencing.

Some things to consider:
Feeling suicidal does not make you a bad person.
Thoughts of ending your own life do not necessarily mean that you truly want to die—they mean, rather, that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. The pain of deep depression is intense. It is too much to bear for long periods of time.

What might be bearable to someone else may not be to you.
Many kinds of emotional pain may lead to thoughts of suicide. The reasons for this pain are unique to every person, and whether or not the pain is bearable differs from person to person.

Give yourself some distance between thoughts and action.
Say to yourself, "I will wait 24 hours and won't do anything drastic during that time." Or, wait a week. Thoughts and actions are two different things—your suicidal thoughts do not have to become a reality. There is no deadline. There's no time limit, no one pushing you to act on these thoughts right now. Wait. Wait and put some distance between your suicidal thoughts and suicidal action.

There are people who want to support you during this difficult time.
You can choose to live, but first it is important that you find some relief from your pain. To do that, you will need to find a way to increase your connections with people who will listen. Even if it doesn't feel like it right now, there are many people who welcome the chance to support you during this time. They won't try to argue with you about how miserable you feel or to just "snap out of it". They will not judge you. They will simply listen and be there for you. Find someone. Now. Use your 24 hours, or your week, to tell someone what's going on with you.

Reach out to just one person to start.
Look in the front of your phone book for a crisis line and call the number immediately!

Call 1-800-273-TALK in the United States or

Call a trusted friend, family member, minister, rabbi, doctor or therapist - someone you trust and who is likely to listen

Even if your suicidal feelings have subsided, get help for yourself.
Experiencing that sort of emotional pain is itself a traumatizing experience. Finding a support group or therapist can be very helpful in developing strong coping resources for the future.

Some ways to cope with suicidal thoughts and feelings
Talk with someone every day, preferably face to face. Though you feel like withdrawing, ask trusted friends and acquaintances to spend time with you.
Be with people who aren't depressed. This can lift you up and make you feel better.
If you are thinking of taking an overdose, give your medicines to someone who can give them to you one day at a time.
Remove any dangerous objects or weapons from your home.
Avoid alcohol and other drugs of abuse.
Wait until you are feeling better before doing things you find difficult..
Make a written schedule for yourself every day and stick to it, no matter what.
Set priorities for the things that need to be done first. Cross things out on your schedule as you finish them.
Eat a well-balanced diet that includes protein and avoids sweets.
Don't skip meals.
Get at least eight hours of sleep each night.
Exercise in a way that makes you perspire.
Walk run, dance, hike or bike – more than once a day if at all possible.
Get in the sun at least 30-minutes a day (can be combined with exercise).

Best luck!