Whats wrong with me?!

Whats wrong with me?

so here's the deal i hate myself i always have i think and it has gotten worse when i look in the mirror i see a fat ugly cow who is a loser when i look in the mirror i see am to fat my hair is not long curly enough and my butt is to big everything i have more also i have scars form self harm i dont hurt my self anymore so dont worry also i just hate my self all the time and my question is is there anything i can to to make me like me and does anyone else fell this way no rude answers please this is a poem i wrote when it got really bad
lier/loser/worthless
hurry walk by fast before they c u dont look u look right down
wear that jacket so hey dont c ur scars
act fake so they so they think ur happy
never let them know the truth scared of ur self scared of others just leave me be me and my pain who am i i will tell u a worthless fat cow loser who just needs it all to end so tired of the pain get a knife am done one two three blood rushes to the floor better again but 4 how long

OMG I'm so sorry you feel this way! I have also had very low self esteem so I know how you feel. I still am struggling with that problem. But I've learned that the best way to deal with it is to learn to love yourself. I'm sure you are a beautiful and wonderful person- you just don't realize it yet! I don't think you should feel bad about your weight b/c you should love yourself the way you are, but if it is really bothering you, then try to go on a diet. You said your hair is not long and curly enough, but that is no reason to feel bad! My hair is super frizzy and it takes me two hours to straighten it. Just grow your hair out more and use curlers. Having a big butt is not bad! A lot of guys have told me they like girls w/ meat on their bones and big butts can be really attractive! Lol. Scars from self harm can look better w/ using Mederma, and everyone has scars. Like I have this scar on my leg because accidentally burned myself from when I was 8. Also, try to buy some new clothes, get a manicure, go to a spa, and get a full makeover! You are pretty and you probably don't need it, but it always makes anyone have better confidence to take care of themselves and look their best.

The things I listed above are only to improve your outer appearance, but really the main thing you have to do is internal. Try to get confidence! You sound like a great girl and you are not a loser or an ugly, fat cow. You only THINK you are. Try to go out, make new friends, and have fun. Nobody is perfect and everyone has flaws. That is what makes you unique! And everyone is pretty, just in different ways. I think that everyone has something special to offer and you sound like you are really pretty and have a great heart! You just need to get some more self esteem. And don't go back to cutting yourself. You made a good decision when you decided to stop doing that.

I hope my answer helps and I hope everything works out 4 you! =)