This will be my 3rd day working and im nervous?!

This will be my 3rd day working and im nervous?

The first day wasnt so bad, i knew the other lifegaurds , and they were friendly, plus there wasnt alot of people in the pool. but my second day i was really nervous, i thought everyone was looking at me while i was on the stand and i thought everyone thought i looked stupid, and alot of the parents were looking at me too, aww i just hope today goes better, i try to be friendly and smile, i just wish people were friendly and not so critical. and today i have a feeling the pool is going to be packed which is even worse for me, more stress.

4 weeks ago
its an indoor pool.

4 weeks ago
yea well the people at the pool notice me, this one arab guy was staring at me like the whole day, then he comes near me while im on both stands and he just annoyed me, i knew he noticed my anxiety, then my friend was there with his family and they notice me freaking out, just by the way i was breathing heavily and they were pointing at me and saying ****, y should i go to work if i dont enjoy it, yes ive only worked there 3 days but that should be enough time to get used it, then i was tlaking to one of the other lifegaurds in the lfiegaurd room and she was like aww im so fustrated and i knew it was b/c of me, she said i hate how this one person always freaks out, and im the only one, cause she was talking about the other lifegaurds, then im talking to my boss and she said i think u got some personal issues. and shes right i do, i need to see my doctor but as ive said a million times my parents wont let me, i feel alone, i am so nervous about wat will happen tomorrow at work... gahhhh

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