I'm Scared of What I Might Do?!

I'm Scared of What I Might Do?

I took a depression quiz online after realizing how serious the symptoms of how I was feeling were. It said I was chronically depressed because I answered 8 out of 10 questions yes. Here's how I have been feeling for a year now; lately I have been so sensitive. I feel like my friends hate me and I know thats cliche but the people I used to trust so much all of the sudden act different towards me because I was sexually assaulted. I IM them and they just ignore me. I have been trying to get into private school but my parents can't afford $20000. My public school would be a nightmare. I hate middle school as it is, I'm in eighth. Nobody seems to want to listen. I tell them and they just go "Oh im sorry". I know they cant cure it but when I tell them, I feel liek Im a whiny brat. But I really am sad. I just break down crying at random days and I feel this empty feeling in my stomach. I look up ways to kill myself but I think its okay because I know Im not gonna do it, I'm too much of a chi

4 weeks ago
cken. I have been through so much this year, a bad breakup, sexual assault twice from the same person, divorce, police with my older brother. I know a lot of people have dealt with worse but this is tearing me apart. The bottom line is, I'm sad and lonely and there is no one to genuinely talk to me. My parents just say it will get better. I think I'm really mentally sick from all of this. I just want to stop crying. It feels good but I want to finally be really happy. Please no negatively, as of now I'm really upset and I dont want to be taunted. Please someone give me some advice.

all your parents say to you is it will get better????? OMG..why are they not getting some counseling for you !!!!!! and you need alot of support now....and you're so young...your feelings right now sound normal to me considering what you've gone thru....your friends probably don't know what to say...they're young themselves ......no, you're not a whiny brat..
PLEASE explain to your parents you really need someone to talk to....it will help alot....I can't imagine how horrible you feel....I really hope you get the support you need.....

lots of luck and a hug to you