Do U think I should crazy by now?!

Do U think I should crazy by now?

Okaay so I went through alot as a kid.My dad never been around for me,he's a alcoholic,My mom left me for a guy,when I was 11.My foster parents threaten to beat me and are strict people.My brother treats me like crap,and my other brother calls me down.My mom's b.f gave me an *** whoopin last week(Sun.June.11.2007) and I alwaze come close to near death expeiences.My (Use-2-B)friends told the whole town really nasty rumourz bout me,so i became the most hated person.I've never talked to a shrink before,but itz hard.My family like dunt try helpin me out or supporting me in anything.My dad threw a knife at me once and it nearly missed me.Shoud I be crazy by now?I use to be a very shy and sensitive person but now I feel like i'm heart-less.Like I dun't have anymore emotions or something.

4 weeks ago
My Dad's sister/My Auntie died 2 monthes ago from cancer.I went to her funeral but I wasnt crying or anything.Hard to do something great when ur alone.

How old are you? Are you close to legal age where you can move out soon? Don't let all this stuff turn you into a cold hearted person. Once you move out, go forward and don't look back. You can be ANYTHING you want to be - try to look at all the things you've overcome and know how really strong you are. Make it a point to never treat people the way you've been treated - break the abuse cycle. Get into counseling - even if it's a counselor at school. You don't have to be a victim - even if you're living in a victim's world right now. God Bless.