I cry a lot.?!

I cry a lot.?

lost my wife and daughter in a car wreck.home and everything in a disaster.stayed with mother for nine months with no help till the cancer went to her brain and killed her and we were very close. then lost my best friend stayed with him all the time at the hospital till he died. brothers betrayed me. am disabled with a lot of pain. i need to stop hurting emotionally and crying. and being so depresed. please tell me what to do. i take medicine but it doesnt seem to help much. i am alone in life. i just cant stand it sometimes. have cut my wrist twice deep. i want to live but it hurts so m,uch tell me what to do are think and any suggestions you may have.i tryed a mental hospital but they were very rude & weird and put me in with the crazies when i was caught crying in my room there.that was terrible to be put in with the crazies section for crying? alone in my room. I know Gods spirit is with me. though.Thanks.

You have had a lot of lost; it would be ludicrous to think that the crying should stop anytime soon. What you need to understand is that tears are naturally cleansing and are your bodies/emotions way of trying to move through the healing process. So first of all you must allow yourself/ give yourself permission to mourn. Once you do that cry, feel bad and welcome the pain for there is healing in it.

Now when the tears are uncontrollable or seem to be moving to a place that is more clinical in nature, there are still many options. You mentioned medication and in-patient treatment; however neither are a "one size fit all" kind of solution. Be an advocate for yourself! If the medication is not working, go back to your doctor and demand that they help you find the medication of combination of drug therapy that is most effective and supportive for managing you symptoms. Medication is hard, b/c sometimes it takes a while to find the right combination, but used appropriately, they can be highly effective.

In-patient treatment can be difficult as well b/c every facility isn't appropriate for everyone. Mixed populations (i.e. high, mid, low and no functioning persons) are often least effective. Based on your post you sound mid to high functioning, perhaps seeking treatment from places that specialize in mental health treatment of higher functioning people may be more effective. I know that cost, accessibility etc are all factors, but research is the key. I'd be glad to help or make suggestions, near your location.

Finally allow yourself time to heal! It took time to lose your love ones and recovery will take time as well. There are still small steps that can be taken daily, such as positive self talk, daily affirmations, meditation, prayer, cognitive restructuring and so on!
You are an amazing person, this would have been too much for someone else to go through and yet here you are! Beaten bruised and tired but here! Key things that give me hope for you (and hopefully will minister to you as well). 1. You want to live! 2. Living Hurts, if you can still fell the pain your emotions are not numb, feeling the emotions are good, you must now learn to just turn down the volume and intensity with which they scream your name. & 3. You know that God's spirit is within you. Hold fast to your faith! For in those moments when you cannot live for you, remember the spirit that dwells within you, and that God is Love! Know that God has left you here for a reason; there is purpose for your living! You have much to live for and are stronger than you give yourself credit for. Keep pushing and know that despite all that has happened "your tears don’t compromise your strength.
Peace & Blessings