Low self esteem and my boyfriend?!

Low self esteem and my boyfriend?

Ok...so I just plain suck I guess...my boyfriend just got hired at a new job...of course my one fear is that he is going to find somebody else (I always get a guilty conscience about stuff like that)

I already said there weren't any hot girls there when you went for your interview right??? He called me stupid for even thinking that he was going to leave me...again I suck but what can I do to raise my self esteem a bit?? I blame it all on my mother because she would always criticize me growing up. :-(

4 weeks ago
He didn't call me stupid in a "dumbass" way it was one of those don't be stupid nonsense type things...

I have trust issues with people these days because of my ex fiance who always lied about the little things to me and finally everything came out..

i have had that problem too and i still have that problem but i have lowered it a lot ijust think how my b/f will be scared off if i don't stop they hate it when girls act like that but it's def. harder when you have messed w/ by another guy before and you put up a wall by not wanting to trust but you need to thinkhow your b/f cares for you and he wants to be with not anyone else....