I feel suicidal?!

I feel suicidal?

I feel a loser. I have no friends, no social life, no confidence, no future, I can't laugh o'r smile because I just feel numb and emotionless, everyone laughs at me behind my back..I know it! people have always seen me as a loser. I really don't see the point of living. I'm 26 and so far I haven't got anything out of life and nothings going to change.

4 weeks ago
I am on medication, but there's a six month waiting list to see a therapist. And I'm too much of a looser to have the guts to kill myself anyway so don't worry. If I did kill myself I wouldn't jump off a bridge anyway........Too much blood and guts to clean up... See I'm considerate!

i am trying to i.m. you, you won't answer back, it is not worth it man! plz don't , it's a permanant solution to a tamporary problem!!!!