Im really sad whats happened over the past couple of years.Grandparents died,dog!

Im really sad whats happened over the past couple of years.Grandparents died,dog,died,bob barker retiring.Help

In 2005 I lost my grandmother hurt me really bad.less than 2 years later.and exactly 1 year ago today june 16,2006 her widower my grandfather died.That led to numerous emergency room visits(nothing serious)and anxiety.and a 2 week long period of depression(which is gone now)and know,my favorite celebrity bob barker is retired from The Price is RIght.I dont know what to do.Cant stop crying....I already miss Bob.and since the passing of my grandparents my own family hasnt helped...my jock cousin whos one year older than me got a 50dollar gift card and I got a fancy $10 coloring book from Kohls for christmas.....my aunt came to my home and yelled at me for missing school.I dont know.My heart is weaker than other to say the truth.I dont want to get another series of depression.But what can I do to keep my spirit up???

Thanks.

just move on, trust me theres worst things than bob barker retiring, or not getting a coloring book. just live your life. maybe talk to your parents about it.