I wish i knew what was wrong with me?!

I wish i knew what was wrong with me?

I know I have severe psychological problems. My depression alternates. Sometimes I will feel very anxious and I will do strange things, like spend hours downloading pornography and then feel guilt-ridden and want to slit my writs. Another thing, I will want to go get in a fight because I will feel so full of energy. I do things like that to make me happy. It ends up making me feel worse, even suicidal. And then a few hours later I will feel happy and I will be joking around again and then I will switch to being depressed again, wanting to cut my wrists. I am tired of feeling happy one minute and then majorly depressed the next and being in despair. I don\\\\\\\'t know what is wrong with me. I have a history of drug and alcohol abuse to self-medicate. Last week I got so depressed I drank and got alcohol poisoning and ended up in the ER. Does anyone suggest anything?

See a therapist or look into rehab. Talk to someone you can trust and find out what you can do. You probally will be prescribed medications but you have to act fast before you end up killing yourself.

Good luck.