Only for those who know where i'm coming from.....?!

Only for those who know where i'm coming from.....?

i'm so tired i'm only 30 but i suffer from depression badly, i have bad anxiety around people at times even people i know like my sis or bf, i do take meds i guess i need a new doctor but they just give u more meds.. i just want to know will it ever change seriously...i've tried suicide many times but it never works(its like im not meant to die) anyhow i just want to know how i can change that. i went through so much on my life especially chilhood and its too painful to just keep moving. that changed the way i see things iread alot of book that have similar stories but y cant i do it.. im tired of this hate i have inside i know i have to let go... i believe everything happens for a reason but why.....i guess what i would like is if u r going through this or have gone through this seriously please hit me up....no bullshit or smartasses just to get points or stupid answers...........please help.............thank you!

I want you to know your not alone and I do understand. try and think its not where you are coming from but where you are going. think positive and positive will come to you.