Im having a problem with taking too much benadryl.?!

Im having a problem with taking too much benadryl.?

I take about 15 to 20 25mg pills at a time so I can get high or alter my mind whatever.. I had a problem with this a couple of months ago where I overdosed. Since the overdose I hadnt used it much but Im finding im starting to lean on it again ever since I stopped drinking. In therapyI have started to unearth several painful memories. Today I have been feeling a lot of that pain but I have no where to go with it. Im confused. How can I keep myself from using the benadryl? I want to call my therapist but its the weekend and I feel weird calling on the weekend.(That sounds so stupid I know,but its how I feel) I just want to stop using the pills.

Your therapist would probably be the person to talk to, i am sure she would rather have you call her than abuse any substance, that is why she went into her profession. in the meantime try excecise something to keep your mind and body from looking inward and drink water to help flush your system of the benadryl. I would also call a friend and have them come over to take the bottle away and maybe stay with you for awhile so you can vent.