Not sure if i suffer from depression?!

Not sure if i suffer from depression?

i know really i need to go see a doc, but i'm scared of people so that's a long way off. the thing is, even though i get low enough to self harm, and i often feel suicidal, i doubt if i actually suffer from depression, as i'm not like this all the time. i'm like it a lot of the time, but i can be happy and enjoy some things. if i was to see a doctor i think they would think i'm being stupid. is this depression or not? i'm really confused.

i think it is. depressed people can have fun, too. it might be borderline manic depression/depression. most people dont think they have depression when they really do. i was the same way until i was diagnosed. you should really go to our doctor, self-injury is dangerous. (yeah, you've probably heard that a million times, but i know how you feel, i was the same way). so, i would recommend you go to your doctor. you will probably only see the doctor one or two times, and thats it, no more doctor. you have to remember that doctors have patients that deal with this all the time. or, you probably wont wanna do this but you could go to a physcologist. they help. i hope you feel better, i hate to see people like this. i know how you feel.