I'm all packed to go, but now I don't want to go?!

I'm all packed to go, but now I don't want to go?

I've been planning this backpacking trip since January. I spent money on new gear, shoes, clothes, backpacking food. I've made lists, plans, printed maps, researched everything. My wife and kid are on vacation and I'm home alone and just like every year I'm just sitting here.The bag is packed in the other room. All I have to do is get it, get the food in the fridge, load the car and drive three hours to the mountains. I feel sick with anxiety, guilt, worthlessness. If I don't do this, then why do I pretend to love backpacking so much? If this isn't what I want then why did I make all these preparations? What am I going to do for three weeks if every day I could be backpacking but instead I do nothing?

Force yourself to get out there and follow through on your plans. No good will come of you staying at home, alone, and having these feelings. Go out, hike and conquer your anxiety of being alone. You have not been abandoned, you have time to yourself, which I would imagine is very difficult when you have a family. Enjoy this small bit of freedom while you have it. You will feel much better. Good luck to you.