If youve had a history of bullying and being attacked and victimisation in your !

If youve had a history of bullying and being attacked and victimisation in your life, will you always be in?

internal conflict with yourself feeling as though now, in the present, you feel you have something to prove, and maybe the desire for revenge? like, your still fighting those victimisers and bullies from the past, but in the present?
plus: if you have a rage problem, could these thoughts be feeding into the fire of your destructive rage problem.
so its like, youve been pushed around, hurt and bullied so much, you have incredable rage and feel the urge to fight back now, and inflict as much damage on them, as they did to you, even though all of the trauma is deep in your past, your fighting them bullies and attackers now, in the present...

does anybody no what im trying to say? and how the cycle could be broken?

1 month ago
exactly AB you put it as exactly as i meant it

Yes, I think I do understand what you're saying. It's like the past keeps imposing itself on the present, so you're fighting the battles of long ago and it stops you being able to live a good life in the present.

Everything you say suggests that psychotherapy would be really helpful. You have some insight into what is going on and a willingness to change. Make sure you find a properly qualified and registered psychotherapist (in the UK, http://www.psychotherapy.org.uk... or http://www.bcp.org.uk )