Please help me?!
Question:
Please help me?
i am a 14 year old girl and i just got out of ninth grade. i was depressed for the whole school year, and then the first few weeks of summer have been awesome. i started cutting a while ago and then stopped and started again a little bit. i think about killing myself all the time. and the other day i was on my raised porch and i just got up and climbed over the rail. it is only like a ten foot drop and there is a huge bush in the way, but i was still going to jump if just for the pain. but then i realized that unless i somehow died, i would have to explain to people what happened. and i don't want to do that. it is my worst fear to tell anyone what has been going on this past year. so i didn't jump, and i walked five miles to my best friend's house instead but i couldn't tell her why i had come. and now i don't know what to do, do i need help? should i tell people? or should i just slap myself in the face and move on. does a truly suicidal person tell people? i don't know what to do...
Additional Details1 month ago
this is so terrifying
and i forgot to mention that i am not sure my friend will believe me and not think that i am doing this for attention because i know someone who did cut and they all say she did it for attention
Answers:
try to get your parents to get you on antidepressants. its your best chance. and yea, suicidal ppl do sometimes tell others