Depression...friendship and jealously. Help please!!!!?!

Depression...friendship and jealously. Help please!!!!?

I love my best friend shes been there for me through everything but my depression has been getting really bad to the point i dont want to be left alone... she just got a new boyfriend and i hate it i get so angry when she goes out with him. Ive been getting really bad mood swings and really mean and then it changes around to being really nice i dont get it.. i feel really lonely and i dont like that feeling shes the only friend i have well her boyfriend was my friend but now i feel like i cant talk to either of them anymore cuz they are going out i hate being the one left out of everything im always sad crying and ive been cutting to take away the pain im lost and i dont know how to get back to my old self ive been like this for years and i cant take it anymore someone please give me some advice on what to do!!!!!!

1 month ago
my mom just thinks its a joke i tryed talking to her but she doesnt really care... and i dont really talk to any other part of my family

I really think that you are definitely suffering from depression and should seek counseling. You have to learn how to love yourself and somehow you have lost site of this.Your best friend will always be what she is,A best friend.She will always be there for you know matter who she is dating if she is truly a best friend. I really hope and will pray that you stop cutting yourself and seek some couceling from someone for yourself.Also Know that you are loved by many and are a worthy person who just want to be loved, a find happiness.Take Care.Hope that I have helped you some.