What can I do? I'm really depressed because my family is falling apart?!

What can I do? I'm really depressed because my family is falling apart?

and i reached out for help, to the minister's wife, whom my mother talks to, but in a condescending manner, she just called me selfish, foolish, rebellious, unworthy of being understood, silly, immature, depraved, the list goes on.

i feel so horrible now. i feel like i'm a horrible daughter and person. i wish i was never born!!

1 month ago
hey, i tried to reach out to the church and even told them i was feeling suicidal. they made fun of me. if that's what jesus would do, i want no part!

1 month ago
and i'm not being facetious, i am, in all seriousness, very depressed. i can't stop crying. i'm really hurting but no one cares! they think i'm doing it for attention, but i just need their help!

I am sorry that your attempts to find help were met with such an unfavourable outcome. First I want you to realize that this women is a disgrace and should you ever hear of another person who needs someone to talk to make sure they don't confide in someone who is so lacking in human compassion, empathy and decency. I am appalled that you would be treated in such a manner and if that person was working in a professional capacity they would be losing their licence.
Many people go through personal difficulties and you best bet would be to call a local government agency that will refer you to a counselor or a therapist so that you may receive some expert support to help you through these difficult times. It is hard to deal with personal issues and I assure you that you are none of those labels that you were called.
Please don't feel horrible. This too shall pass and right now you must remember to be gentle with yourself. I don't know exactly what it is you are going through but I do feel sympathy with the negative feelings you are experiencing. Nobody has a perfect life and right now you need to find some support to help you deal with these issues and emotions in a healthy, healing way. You will find that we all make errors in our lifetime and the trick is to learn from these experiences and to become better people because of this. I hope you will find someone to discuss you troubles with and soon you will lose the guilty feelings and be able to move towards finding a viable solution.
You were put on this earth for a reason and I believe in you.