I'm stopping myself from being happy...??!

I'm stopping myself from being happy...??

I need to lose some weight, and I've done it before, but gained it back as I deal with my depression with food, and it's become a habit, so even when I'm not "depressed" I still go for the food. I have written countless lists of why I want to lose weight, and I have more than a million reasons to do so, but it's just not working. I know EXACTLY how to do it, but I keep sabotaging myself. I think that I am using my "extra weight" as a kind of security blanket, and I use it as an excuse not to participate in life. It sounds crazy, even to me *LOL*

Someone please tell me something harsh, not too mean, about what I need to tell myself, or do, I'm feeling like a failure. I need a lightbulb moment or something?

Im not 'depressed', or obsessed with being skinny, I just want to give my body the respect it deserves, but I just keep treating it like ****.

Thanks to you all x

1 month ago
Thankyou John, how kind you are. All the bad foods are gone in my house you ********. I'm not an idiot.

You are so honest. That is an amazing quality. However you don't really believe you deserve to be at your best, hence the self-sabotaging. You seem to be quite insightful about yourself. I suggest you shine that laser mind on why you think you don't deserve the best in life. You have some healing to do concerning your value in order to stop your self-destructive behavior.