How to stop making rules for myself?!

How to stop making rules for myself?

Ok so about 2 weeks ago I had this huge anxiety thing that lasted for a week or so. (not eating, feeling of losing it etc). Anyway, Since then i have been making these stupid rules for myself in order to keep anxiety away.. I realize that im making the rules and i realize that they are not rational but i cant seem to stop making them or to not follow them. (Examples of the rules are like being asleep by 10:30, not eating after 7pm, having to be home by 8pm etc) How can i stop this?

1 month ago
When i dont follow the rules... like last night i was up at 10:45, i have anxiety attacks.

What you are describing sounds like the symptoms of Obsessive Compulsive Disorder, though no one can diagnose you over the internet. It's common for people with OCD to make rules and patterns that they feel compelled to follow OR ELSE. When they don't follow those rulse or patterns, they feel overwhelming anxiety until they are able to follow through with them. You should speak with a counselor or psychiatrist about this and see what they recommend. Often therapy along with medication can help these symptoms.