I opened up big time today at my therapist appt.?!
Question:
I opened up big time today at my therapist appt.?
and she even said I have been doing a good job in opening up. I feel lost though and I want to hate her for seeing me opened up and I want to hate everyone else because I hurt. I dont know what to do I really dont. What can I do? I dont want to close up completely again. I feel all weird in my skin. arggg
Answers:
Katt.
First of all, well done for feeling able to open up, sounds as though that took some doing for you - and although you are hurting now, hopefully this "opening up" is going to hreally help your therapist work more effectively with you from now on.
There are some strong emotions here - the hate and feeling lost - as you have perhaps been told by your therapist right at the start of the sessions, it is often the period of time BETWEEN your sessions that things "click in to place" - and that can mean some pretty emotional times.
It might be really helpful for both you and your therapist if you felt like making a few notes of how you are feeling at the moment. If you don't feel like doing it, that's ok too.
Unfortunately, asking members of the public what you can do is going to give some pretty confusing and contradictory answers here. with the best will in the world, unless folks have some experience of counselling techniques, they may find they get a little out of depth pretty quickly. Even if you have a counsellor answering you, it is generally REALLY unhelpful to have "two therapists".
In short the hurt, while not nice, is something that often happens when people disclose significant stuff - in other words, what you are going through might feel horrible, but is perfectly natural.
I'm really pleased you do not want to give up, perhaps just taking stock of how much you have progressed by being open with your therapist - and reflecting on the fact that they are on the same side of you - may be a useful five minutes thought.
Again, well done for being brave enough to open up to your therapist, your feelings should not remain like this for long - and might be REALLY useful if you felt comfortable in disclosing to your therapist how this all made you feel.
Good luck with your future
Mark