Depressed about moving (not the way you think), worried I might be getting addic!

Depressed about moving (not the way you think), worried I might be getting addicted... Anyone have some advice

I don't really know how to say any of this... I don't like talking about things like this anyways, but I'm starting to get worried... So here goes.

I'm a 17 year old Navy Brat, so I've been moving around my whole life. I've lived in more places in my 17 years than most people will in their lifetimes. But now my father has retired from the Navy, and I find myself quite depressed... It's not like a "I hate my life, I want to die," type of depression... I'm not exactly sure how to explain it though... It's like, I find myself staring out of my window, and just wishing that I was anywhere but here. I have this incredible, insatiable urge to leave. I want to move away from here so much... I've lived here for about 6 years now, and when my father was still in the military, I moved on average about every 3 years. It probably doesn't seem like a long time, but the urge to leave is so strong... It's like a hunger that I can never satisfy... (The rest of this post is on it's way)

1 month ago
I don't know what to do about it though... I mean, I'm ok with moving, heh, I even *like* moving. But I can't move anymore... My father has a job here, and my (extended) family's here... So I feel stuck... I've tried to find other ways to make the feelings go away, but none of them are working... I've tried surrounding myself in expensive things, I've tried excercise, I've tried shopping, volunteering, being with friends and family... Nothing has worked. I finally tried something that, in retrospect, probably wasn't the best idea. I have *lots* of narcotic painkillers (all legally obtained) that my doctor gave me (knee condition/injury), and I tried taking some of them. At first, I could just take one and I would feel great all day, but now I find myself taking more and more (up to 4-5 a day) to make these awful feelings go away. But now I'm scared to stop, cause when I don't take at least three I feel awful... I'm worried that I'm addicted... I don't know what to do though...

1 month ago
I mean, I want to stop, but I *hate* feeling this way... This is one of the most horrible feeling I have ever had... So I don't know if I should stop if these are working for me... I just don't know... I feel helpless about all of this... I guess I'm just looking for advice... So any is appreciated... Thanks for taking the time to look at this...

1 month ago
Oh, I do. I love seeing new places and doing new things. The problem is, unless I *am* seeing new places or doing new things, I get severely depressed...

Tell your dad how you feel.This is very important. You need to ask yourself questions why you feel this way write then down.
That means every feeling you get about this.Then write down ways to change your feeling to understanding.