Is this normal?!

Is this normal?

Ok, so I'm 15 and I guess at this point in my life I'm dealing with a lot of problems that teenagers face, but I feel very overwhelmed by my problems and just want to escape. I mean my parents are controling and want to know exactly everything that is going on with my life at every second, me and my best friend of 10 years have now went our separate ways for now and I'm very upset about that, and then me and my boyfriend broke up that I loved very much. So lately I have been experimenting with drugs, but nothing serious. Basically marijuana and some pills. I just used them to get away for a while and to feel stress free. I've just been thinking that maybe this could be a little more serious than tipical teenage stuff, and that it's probably depression. I make excellent grades, there's no problem there, it's just everything else. I cry a lot and I am almost always sad and I don't even know why half the time. I'm just fed up with dealing with everything. And no I'm NOT suicidal!
Thanks

First of all, 15 is a difficult age. You are too old to be a kid, and too young to be a young adult. It's hard.

Everything you are feeling is very normal. Not to defend your parents, but when you are an adult, you will look back and appreciate that your parents cared enough to keep up with your whereabouts. They care about your safety and well-being and do not do it to control you. But if you look at it from their point of view, it was only a few short years ago that they had to watch you more closely, do your laundry, help you wash your hair, cook your meals. The transition into the teen years is difficult for them, too. So, be glad they care...even if it appears they are controlling.

I'm sure the loss of a dear friend is traumatic. I hope you can find a way to mend that fence, or keep in touch, whichever the case may be. I am sorry to hear of the separation.

As for the boyfriend, I do not know what to tell you there. You will love many and be hurt by even more. I hope everything works out for the best and your broken heart mends, but the honest truth is you will date other guys in your youth and this is just one of many, many break-ups you will experience. Grieve the loss, be sad, but turning to drugs is never the answer.

The drugs you are taking could be making your depression much worse. Drugs are never a good thing, and you could be becoming addicted to them. You should go to your parents and express the need to see a doctor due to your sadness. It isn't necessary to tell them about the drug use, unless you feel it has gotten out of your control and you need help stopping. Otherwise, stop all the drugs now, and see your doctor for help with the depression.

I have endured a difficult childhood, and had parents who didn't care. I was exposed to alcohol and drugs, but managed to turn out really well. If you have any other questions, or need any other advice, you are welcome to message me and I will give you a candid opinion. I do not support drug use, smoking, or drinking - under any circumstances. I hope you stop the drugs and take care of your health. I do see why you might be depressed.

Please take care. Let me know if you need to talk.