My boyfriend's confidence is making me feel ugly...?!

My boyfriend's confidence is making me feel ugly...?

My boyfriend is the type of person who is friendly, caring, very sociable with anyone, very sporty and he is also very very confident in himself. I on the other hand, have been stuck in a bad 6 yr relationship before him and basically lost all my self confidence.

Today we were just discussing about his childhood and what he did before me. He was a VP in a lot of the societies in his school, and loves camping and rock climbing etc based around sports, while my childhood is basically just study study study. It's not as if I'm nerdy, its just I'm really bad at sports and all.

And when he got to the part where he said my childhood was very boring, and that i was 'weird' as a joke, i cant help but feel even worse about myself. I know its only a joke, but i cant stop feeling that way, because in a sense, i agree with him. I'm boring and weird and compared to his friends, i probably wont have anything in common with them (he's raised in a diff country so i havent his good frendsbefore

1 month ago
And so I'm stuck in this situation where I really don't know what to do. I know its not his problem that he is very confident. It's mine for having such lack of self esteem and interest in anything and I just seem like im not good at anything besides studying. I'm pretty and smart and people who get to know me thinks I'm the happiest person in the world. But the problem is, its really hard to be an 'interesting' person when I'm not interested in anything, and I'm finding it really hard to meet new friends, or just have things to say to others.

Sometimes looking at my bf, I would get really jealous of him, especially his exes and feel intimidated that I'm not a good enough person and its really starting to wreck the relationship because i would get angry at nothing.

Yet my bf doesnt know that I'm not happy. He loves me and I know that he loves me and treats me the best already (like truly because I feel it and everyone around it feels it too) and so he doesnt understand why im not

1 month ago
happy and I dont know how to tell him that.

I just want myself to become interested in SOMEthing and have more self esteem in myself. I'm an asian living in australia btw, and im in my 20s. I dont have experience in work because my parents wont let me work because they dont want me to work hard because they love me, and im really bad at everything... so what am i supposed to do? I'm feeling depressed again... Plus i'm not fit at all~! >.<

1 month ago
Basically my question is, how do I get more self esteem and do exciting things, when I'm not interested in anything?

It looks like he likes you just the way you are. Just be yourself, were are all different that's what makes us unique. You shouldn't feel intimidated by anybody, sometimes you don't have to be like your bf friends to fit in, just be nice to them and they'll respect you for that. Try to learn from you boyfriend how to be confident, just start by loving yourself. GOOD LUCK