Could someone please help me in this very personal matter regarding my depressio!

Could someone please help me in this very personal matter regarding my depression?

I'm a guy in my mid-30's, unmarried. I grew up thinking I was perfectly normal. Recently I noticed that I have motor tics (self-dx'd Tourettes but neuro thinks its motor tic disorder). Now I know that these tics have been noticeable by people in my community, and conversation stops when I enter a room. I know that I have attention deficit disorder as I am aware that I lose concentration easily. There's no one in my community that I can talk to.
To add to this, I found out recently that my father was married before and had a son. My mother was married before. They wont talk about it. I understand that it's their choice.
To top all this up, I was dx'd 3 yrs ago with MS.
All this is eating me up inside and I have lost all confidence in myself, and I am ashamed to be myself. I avoid going out with friends and make excuses to not go out.
I know I need professional help, but sometimes I cant admit it to myself.
I feel for some reason that regression therapy will help.
Someone help pls.

1 month ago
I am adding this as there was no space earlier.
I can't seem to do anything worthwhile in life, and I have people who suggest ideas on making money, doing some business (as I have finance probs). But I just can't seem to act on any advice. I can't bear the thought of applying for a job as I just feel dejected in life. (I am not suicidal, before anyone thinks that I am hehe).
I cant approach any girls I like as I think they'd run if they knew the real me.
It boils down to the fact that it's just been one (negative) discovery of myself after another, and I just don't know what to do.
I can say here that I need professional help, but I can't admit it to anyone.
When I had mentioned to my mother last year that I think I am in depression, she thought it was the kind of depression that you have when a girl rejects you. She could not understand that it is a serious enough thing to be a medical condition.

I appreciate anyone taking the time to read through all of this.

Hey, I deal w/ some of the same stuff you're dealing w/. I'm 26, I have depression (since I can remember) and I have MS too. I was wondering if you had talked to your neuro about this, b/c depression can actually be caused by MS. Either way, you should see someone. You don't HAVE to live like this. No one does. You can be well if you choose to get help and do the work. It is difficult to admit. I realized sometime back in high school that I needed help but was too afraid to admit it cause I wanted people to think I was strong and stoic. But last year, I started getting to a point where I was having the desire to jump out of moving cars, wishing I had a gun, etc and I knew I had to get help. My little bro killed himself when I was 20, and so I know how it feels to lose someone like that and would never want to put my family through that again.
Find an MS support group in your area. They can be such a great help when you feel so alone w/ your disease.
Take care.