What can i do when nothing is going to make me happy and back to the girl i used!

What can i do when nothing is going to make me happy and back to the girl i used to be?

I cant see anything helping me, i have screwed up my life and in the process killed the real me, i lived overseas and have now returned and i no longer feel at home here, but my home overseas no longer exists, i have a friend living up north adn could move there but that is not going to help me, i cant get any good jobs here that i will enjoy, i have no friends and no boyfriend and no matter whre i go now or what i do i dont feel it is going to help me as i have turned into this horrible selfish person and screwed any friendships i did have, if i move somewhre else i will be alone which would normally be fine if you were moving for a job or something or if you really wanted ot move nothing can fix the past and therefore anything i do now is not going ot make me happy, i am doomed, i am on anti depressants and seeinga counsellor but no one understands as i am the only one who has lived my life, and has now stuffed it up, i have no idea what to do now?

change your attitude. i read 'i can't,' 'i can't,' 'that is not going to help,' 'i can't.' those statements create your outlook on life and where can you go in life if you say you can't go anywhere?

take a couple days to just relax and think about what you would like to do. no pressure to do anything, simply relax and think. your counselor may understand this idea.