I need help. I'm asking you.?!

I need help. I'm asking you.?

I'm 24 and still live @ home w/my parents. I've had probs w/mental disorders my whole life but I'm sick of it all. I want to be able to be a somebody and make everyone proud but I'm so not motivated... I'd rather die then try. I'm lost. I think of nothing else but dying. I even tried and still try but dont want "docter" help. I guess I just wish there where a way to be "normal". I'm sick of this life... Of all of this... I'm done but dont want to die. What should I do? How do I overcome this all myself? I need help. No hotlines or docs.

1 month ago
P.S. I've been on over 30 meds and been to mental hopitals. Everyone thinks I'm fine now... before being "fine" i was just shrugged off the shoulders.

Sounds like you've had a rough journey and am sick of being the victim/expert patient. Since the first issue you mention is the fact that you live at home with your parents, I think you should make it a goal to move out. You may think you're not motivated, but once you set that goal, I think it will be worth it to you, to work hard to make it happen.

Depression is hard to 'cure' or fix. I know you won't walk away from this situation completely absolved of your old problems, but hopefully you can start living your own life, make some positive change.

Here's a link (www.dailystrength.org) to a good resource for getting support, and seeing what other people in your situation have done to get themselves out of a rut. I think it's worth a shot. Good luck!