Depression and Pushing People Away?!

Depression and Pushing People Away?

Hi all,

I have suffered with depression since I had my son almost 14 years ago, I was in a violent relationship where I was mentaly and physically abused. The relationships after were just as weird. I'm also going through a bad time with my dad, he has lung cancer and there is no help for him... I am currently on anti depressants and waiting to see a counceller, but I need some advice on something, I have met a new guy, he is great, he is understand, supportive, and makes me very happy, but I have this issue with pushing him away and needing constant reassurance, which just gets us into the same repeatative routine and arguements... I'm also very irritable and defensive, does anyone have any suggestions as to how I can control the repeatative/insecurity and the pushing people away until I am able to go and see a councellor?

Since you are aware of what you're doing, you can take steps to try a new way and not do those things anymore. It might even pull you a bit out of the depression.