Honest, Practical Advice:Torn Relationship?!

Honest, Practical Advice:Torn Relationship?

I have had suicidal thoughts. Not to commit suicide but what if I wasn't here b/c it hurts that bad. I am beyond overwhlemed and beyond self-doubt and worthlessness. I'm trying to find my way out so I reach out to my partner. I don't know why but it hurts when he tells me I'm selfish for thinking that, that I am crazy. I've embarassed myself enough with my desperation and crying on my knees with snot running down my face. Is he right? How much can he withstand while I'm bickering and reaching out at the same time? It's all a mess....

Please go see someone, esp. your doctor. Your boyfriend should not be telling you these things, a worthy man will be supportive not critical. However, he may not know how to react to this if he has never dealt with it before. Regardless, remember you are here for a reason and you are NOT worthless or beyond help!