How come im becoming angry and wound up at other people living their lives and h!
Question:
How come im becoming angry and wound up at other people living their lives and having fun? as i browse?
myspace profiles. as i watch tv, see people laughing, giggling, grining, happiness coming easy to them..
i feel cold towards these people, angry, bitter, hatefull, resentfull..
ive had to suffer so much, for so long, endured alot of trauma, physicall and mentall, i have bpd. i feel robbed of a life, of happiness..
and as i wait for therapy im truly wondering whether i can get well, whether i want to get well..
damn i feel so negative, enraged, angry at all the laughter, giggles, grins, light heartedness i see around me...
i feel like the loneliest 29 year old in the world as i sit here in my one bedroom flat, boiling over, teeth clenched as i see someone grinning, some girl with her boyfriend on myspace..
ive never had that! never had a relashionship with a girl...never had any friends...i have a big rage problem, and struggle to contain it at times, im guessing therapy has to concentrate on that, when it happens, my moods are hopelessly low everyday. no confidence.
Answers:
i understand. im starting to go through some of the same things myself now. i am having a hard time dealing with it. the rage is the worst part. i just have to learn to contain it and control myself. if u ever need to chat look me up.