How should I deal with this lonliness?!

How should I deal with this lonliness?

well...i always find myself depressed....im always alone
im shy bad at socializing
i dont have any friends,and a broken family
i have noone to turn to..at all
i try to keep my mind off of it by doing activities
like playing my guitar..watching tv sleeping
or writing..but....those dont help at all.....
i have occasional suicidal thoughts.
i try to hide my feelings alot.and i try not
to think about myself,i realize there is always someone who has it worse than you.and i should be thankful that im not in a worse situation...but......im still really
sad and lonely...
help

1 month ago
thankyou,so much
to everyone who answered
this,i wish i could choose
all of your answers as
the best one
you guys are very kind

Depression is a proven medical condition and can be eased with a doctor's help..you really can not work through it or make yourself feel happy. First thing to do is get medical help and get a balance in your body. Shyness is something many many others suffer through. Since you love music and have a talent for writing, reach out to groups of people who have these same interests. We make friends..true friends..with people who share our beliefs and interests. But what you have to do is get a check-up first..make sure to meantion the thoughts of suicide because harmonal imbalances can make you feel that way. You have to decide to help yourself..first steps..and bless your heart as you make this trip to better health.