My therapist called me today just to see how I was doing since I had a rough wee!
Question:
My therapist called me today just to see how I was doing since I had a rough week last week.?
I wasnt in the best place to talk but when she asked me how I was doing I said I was good. I wanted so bad to tell her I wasnt feeling well but I sat there and said I was fine. Why in the hell would I do that? Why do I keep doing that? She knows I dont feel well why cant I just say nope not feeling good? This frustrates me and I have always had issues with people knowing that I need help. I dont know how to overcome this fear.
Answers:
I have been with my therapist for nine years. When I was suicidal I was seeing him three times a week. He gave me his home office number if I was going to hurt myself.
When he knew things were at a dangerous point, he would call to find out how I was doing. He would say, "How are you"? I would say, "I'm fine, how are you"? Then he would tell me to turn Enya off (I love her music but I become very unstable). Then he would say, "HOW ARE YOU"? Then I would fall apart and cry and cry and talk to him until he got me to put the pills away and he knew we had gotten through one more crisis.
Anyway, there is absolutely nothing wrong with your therapist calling to see how you are. You are fortunate to have him; say a prayer of thankfulness.
Once you get used to trusting him and talking, you will do so much better. And it becomes very natural and comfortable to have someone who does not judge you no matter what you say.
Continued Good Luck!